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LJ is whack [Friday
Apr 13th, 07 at 12:13pm]
Hi guys, long time no see.
I just wanted to let you know, that I no longer use LJ for journal type purposes. I'm on facebook now (ALL the time) and I use lj only when I need to go on my communities to get info on whatever. So I won't be posting, I haven't been reading, if you wanna chat, or see what's up in my life, add Laura Lawson to your facebook. So long LJ.
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Traffic was hell this morning... [Tuesday
Mar 6th, 07 at 9:20am]
[ mood | nervous ]

so I missed my first class and have 40 mins til my next one. I shall use this time to regale you with a story.

Once upon a time there was an eigth grade named Laura. It was summer and she was enjoying it with her friends Julie, Angela, and others she can't remember. Along come three boys from a small town in Ontario. Laura used to go to school with one of them. They were Jon, his friend Steve, and Jon's brother Anthony. Somehow, Laura ended up dating Jon. Jon was wierd. Not wierd cool like Laura is but wierd scary like good ol' Charlie Manson. This relationship of mystifying purportions lasted about a month before Jon went back to the land of snobs and Laura felt safe enough to break it off. Anthony stayed in NS to go to school and reside forever. Upon breaking up with Jon, Anthony told him that Laura had broken up with him to be with Anthony. This is not true, no matter how huge of a crush Laura had an the delectable (sp?) specimen that was Anthony. Jon threatened to return to NS and kill Anthony in various violent ways. Laura was freaked out and put aside all connection to either of them.
The strange summer ended, Laura put all memories of it aside and returned the land of reality. Fast forward about a decade, and Laura is a beautiful and charmng (haha) university student, searching for the meaning of life. To pay for this search she slaves away at a soulless mall 4 days a week for very little pay. One day, on her break at the soulless mall, she ventures into a drug store. A tall, dark and handsome man walks by and she feels a strange sense that she knows him. Upon closer examination it's Anthony! Well, well. Laura's instinct is to run, pretend she doesn't know him, and forget it happened. This is precisely what she did. She managed to avoid Lawtons and it's beautiful manager for a full 3 weeks.
But then, at work again, Laura ventures across the food court for much needed sustenance. A small, quiet 'hello' comes at her. She looks down. Sitting at the table is none other than JON! All the memories come rushing back. 'Run!' her gut tells her, but her polite country ways force her to stay and talk. Before she knows it, she is duped into weekend coffee with the wierd guy whose brother she wants to do unspeakably raunchy things to.
To Be Continued...?


Temptation [Wednesday
Feb 28th, 07 at 12:21pm]
I usually try to curb the capitalist influences in my life but....Collapse )

I'm bored [Sunday
Feb 25th, 07 at 10:29am]
So I'm subjecting you all to thisCollapse )

My last post was 19 days ago... [Tuesday
Feb 20th, 07 at 9:19am]
[ mood | discontent ]

That's not as bad as I thought, I thought it was waaaaay longer. But this post is gonna be kinda lame, no updates, just a dream I had last night that freaked the shit outta me....and proved that there is no end to my keenerness:

I'm at SMU, but for some reasong I am being required to write a provincial. (Remember those godawful things?) Apparently I had forgotten to write a major one, so technically I never graduated from HS. This provincial had a math half and an english half. Stacy and Lauren were writing too. I decided not to study for the math half, even though I knew that I remembered NOTHING from HS math. The exam was being administered by Mr. Fitz, who for some reason let me keep leaving and coming back, but I didn't leave to look at a math book, no, I left to walk down the hallway, cough, and go back. I had five minutes to finish the exam, hadn't gotten past the first question, and suddenly I realized that I didn't need to do the math half because you only need two maths to graduate. I was elated! And then I realized I had 5 mins to do the entire english half. Mr. Fitz laughed at me and I woke up in a cold sweat, struggling for breath.....cuz I'm a nerd.

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Best pick-up line ever... [Thursday
Feb 1st, 07 at 8:27pm]
I want to lick mashed potatoes off your face.

I can totally see myself using that line.....while drunk.

Also, my new friend (who lives in the Gaza strip *eeek*) told me that I raise his emotions....does that mean I turn him on? lol

Maybe I'm a Hindu? [Wednesday
Jan 31st, 07 at 8:43am]
Hindu class is really blowing my mind. Hinduism seems so close to what I've always believed, and it's so rich and colorful and magical....here goes Laura and her obsession with finding a religion again, lol. Anyway, I was reading my text and I came across a poem that I really love, that really hits on my idea of god. I'm gonna share it, even tho no one cares, lol.

i eat god
i drink god
i sleep on god
i buy god
i count god
i deal
with god
god is here
god is there
void is not
devoid of god
jani says:
god is within
god is without
and moreover,
there's god to spare

This was written by Janabai, a maidservant who transcended class/caste distinctions through her devotion to god. Yup, I'm a loser. :D

Love me, love me, say that you love me. [Wednesday
Jan 31st, 07 at 8:42am]
My Valentinr - halidaisy
Get your own valentinr

And this is why I love country people [Friday
Jan 26th, 07 at 4:57pm]
An amusing convo between myself and a hardcore country guy:

Me: I'm hungry
Ralph: Eat something
Me: There's nothing here I wanna eat
David: I have a couple cans of stew in my truck. Want one?
Me: No I can't eat stew. I'm a vegetarian
David: Is that some religion you're studying?
Me: No, it means I don't eat no meat. (said like the chick in My Big Fat Greek Wedding)
David: Oh........I think one of them is chicken stew
Me: Um....chicken is meat
David: Oh.
*brief pause*
David: Ralph's cooking up some bacon and eggs, have some of that
Me: Bacon is made from pigs. Pigs is meat
David: Oh....well I better get going, I have to go to Porter's Lake. Want me to pick you up some fish and chips?
Me: *blank stare*
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Lalalala [Tuesday
Jan 23rd, 07 at 2:35pm]
[ mood | enthralled ]

So's I hung out with Lauren most of yesterday and it was big fun. When Lauren is working all the time and not able to chill, I sometimes forget how hilariously witty she is. :D
She introduced me to the fabulousness of Planet Organic. I may even be able to get used to soy pudding...part-time veganism, here I come?

Anyhoo, a couple points I thought I'd like to mention. To my real-life friends who read this lj, the first one should not be ignored as most things I say on here are :)
1) Sunday, February 4, 2:30 pm at the Spring Garden Memorial Library
A FREE showing of the movie Wal-town. They will show the movie FREE of charge about 6 protesters making their way across Canada to spread awareness for FREE of the evils of Wal-mart. Did I mention it was free? Now, I know that the things I generally want to do rarely involve alcohol, or......drinking alcohol or.....whatever else usually gets you guys out into the public domain....but I REALLY want to see this and I REALLY don't want to go alone. So someone please volunteer to go with me.
2) I find it incredibly odd that, having grown up in a strictly Christian, predominantly Catholic area, I seem to have developed ideas, beliefs, morals and questions that follow along the Hindu/Buddhist/Jainist (teehee) way of thinking. Perhaps I should reevaluate my understanding of enculturation...
3) I'm thinking of honoring...probably in religion...I seem to be continuously leaning more toward the religious side of my major. May have something to do with my experiences within the anthropology department.
4) I think I'm in love with India...

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Jan 21st, 07 at 11:02am]
Sacred fungus wtf!?!?
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Optimismtic vs Naive [Saturday
Jan 20th, 07 at 10:54am]
[ mood | bouncy ]

As I was doing a quiz on a kids website (yeah ok, so I'm addicted to webkinz) I came across a question about optimism. As a 'fun fact' at the end of the question it said that in order to be optimistic, you have to be a little naive. I disagree:

na·ive or na·ïve:
Lacking worldly experience and understanding, especially:
Simple and guileless; artless: a child with a naive charm.
Unsuspecting or credulous: "Students, often bright but naive, bet—and lose—substantial sums of money on sporting events" (Tim Layden).
Not previously subjected to experiments: testing naive mice.
Not having previously taken or received a particular drug: persons naive to marijuana.

1. disposed to take a favorable view of events or conditions and to expect the most favorable outcome.
2. reflecting optimism: an optimistic plan.
3. of or pertaining to optimism.

Now, although in the past few months I have been prone to bouts of cynicism, on the whole I believe myself to be quite optimistic. But I really don't like being called naive. I know that there are people starving to death in the world. I know there are baby cows tied to short posts, unable to move so that there muscles remain soft and 'yummy' at this very moment. I understand that our world is closer to destruction at this very moment than at any other moment (barring that magical moment near the end of the cold war) whether environmentally or atomically (or nuclearly...). But, my friends, although I'm not stupid, I can see the possibilities laying in front of me. I believe that we can turn this around and I look around me every day and see more people trying. If I didn't believe the world could change, then why whould I try so hard to do what I think is right? Granted, I often fail, but because I'm not pessimistic, I don't give up. I haven't eaten meat in quite a while and I have significantly reduced my intake of any animal products. I've gone without smoking for a week and I feel that I can actually quit this time. I don't litter and I try to recycle. I refrain from shooting people and I try to smile often. Do these things make me naive? I see those cynics snicker when I wave to a person stopping to let me cross the street. I know they're looking at me funny when they come to my work and I ask how they're doing rather than just make their smoothy and shut up. They think I'm naive, but I don't. I think they are. Ever stop to think that maybe those negative thoughts, those unbelieving ideas are merely self-fulfilling prophecies?
In yo face webkinz.


Farewell dear harbourmaster [Friday
Jan 19th, 07 at 6:22pm]
Denny Doherty, harbourmaster and 1/4th of the Mama's and the Papa's, is no more.


So....I'm an idiot [Thursday
Jan 18th, 07 at 8:44pm]
[ mood | curious ]

After spending about an hour searching the ol' interweb for info on this open house at the Hindu temple I've been hearing about, I realized that I've confused the Halifax Hindu Vedanta Ashram Society with the (quite Buddhist) Shambhala Centre. This sets me back a little in regards to the oh-so-dreaded class trip I'll be taking to the Hindu temple, but I would still really love to go to open house at the Shambhala Centre. It's on Wednesdays (magically, I have a next wednesday off) at 8pm and goes for an hour followed by yummy foodstuffs. Whose coming with me?


I wanted to post this earlier... [Tuesday
Jan 16th, 07 at 6:18pm]
when I was feeling pooey. Now I am much better....but Imma post it anyway.

A Perfect Sonnet

Lately I've been wishing I had one desire
Something that would make me never want another
Something that would make it so that nothing matters
All would be clear then
But I guess I'll have to settle for a few brief moments
And watch all dissolve into a single second
And try to write it down into a perfect sonnet
Or one foolish line

Because that's all that you'll get so you'll have to accept
You are here and then you're gone

But I believe that lovers should be tied together
And thrown into the ocean in the worst of weather
And left there to drown
Left there to drown in their innocence
But as for me, I'm coming to the final chapter
I read all of the pages and there's still no answer
Only all that was before I know must soon come after
That's the only way it can be

So I stand in the sun and I breathe with my lungs
Trying to spare myself the weight of the truth

Saying everything you've ever seen was just a mirror
And you've spent your whole life sweating in an endless fever
And now you're laying in a bathtub full of freezing water
Wishing you were a ghost
But once you knew a girl and you named her Lover
And danced with her in kitchens through the greenest summer
But autumn came, she disappeared, you don't remember
Where she said she was going to

But you know that she's gone because she left you a song
That you don't want to sing

Singing, I believe that lovers should be chained together
And thrown into a fire with their songs and letters
And left there to burn
Left there to burn in their arrogance
But as for me I'm coming to my final failure
I've killed myself with changes trying to make it better
But I still ended up becoming something other
Than what I had planned to be

Now I believe that lovers should be draped in flowers
And laid entwined together on a bed of clover
And left there to sleep
Left there to dream of their happiness

Random question [Tuesday
Jan 16th, 07 at 6:13pm]
Does schadenfreude make you a bad person?
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Je suis not dead [Wednesday
Jan 10th, 07 at 3:39pm]
I haven't been around much, mainly because I have too much to do. A long post is overdue, but for now, prove your love for me:

Create your own friendquiz here
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Another meme from nessainwe [Saturday
Dec 30th, 06 at 11:48pm]
I've seen 74 out of 239 moviesCollapse )
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Stolen from nessainwe [Saturday
Dec 30th, 06 at 12:06pm]
[x] You drink a lot of tea. (mmmmmm......honeybush rooibos)
[ ] You vote conservative or labour because lib dems will never get in
[ ] You know what a brolly is.
[ ] "Deal or No Deal" has taken over your life. (sorry Howie)
[ ] You WANTED Ben to win in "X Factor". (umm...wha?)
[ ] You use the word "bugger" or the phrase "bloody hell".
[ ] Fish & chip shops rule the streets.
[ ] You can eat a full english breakfast.
[ ] You dislike emos almost as much as you dislike chavs. (emos are funny...whats a chav?)
[] It's football, not soccer.
Total = 1

[ ] You wear flip flops all year. (I wish)
[ ] You call flip flops "thongs", not "flip flops".
[ ] You love a backyard barbie. (can you have a successful vegitarian barbeque?)
[x] You know a barbie is not a doll.
[x] You love the beach. **Who doesn't??*
[x] Sometimes you swear without realizing.
[ ] You're a sports fanatic.
[ ] You are tanned.
[ ] You're a bit of a bogan, (?)
[ ] You have an Australian something (thongs, shirt, phone sock, etc.) **My sister brought me back some clothes from when she was that way for work.**
Total = 3

[ ] "The Sopranos" is a great show.
[ ] Your last name ends in a vowel.
[ ] Your grandmother makes her own sauce.
[ ] You know how a real meatball tastes.
[ ] You know Italian songs.
[ .5] You have dark hair and dark eyes. (ish)
[ ] You speak/understand some Italian. (Ciao Bella?)
[x] You are under 5'10''. (maybe?)
[ ] Pizza/spaghetti is the best food in the world.
[ ] You talk with your hands. (i don't think...)
Total = 1.5

[x] You say "'member" instead of "remember". (All us Shore kids mumble a little, don't deny it!)
[ ] You speak spanish or some.
[ ] You like tacos.
[ ] YoU TyPe lIkE ThIs On Da CoMpUtEr.
[ ] You are dark-skinned.
[ ] You know what a "puta" is.
[x] You talk fast occasionally.
[x] You have had highlights/dyed your hair.
Total= 3

[ ] You say "villian" as "VEE-lon".
[x] You get short-tempered.
[x] You know of sombody named "Natasha".
[ ] You speak Polish or know some.
[x]Rain is fun for you. (I love rain!! and puddle jumping!!)
[ ] You get into contests all the time.
[ ] You can easily make do with the cold weather.
[x] At family get togethers, people are loud and drink a lot.
Total= 4 (Ohh, I'm pretty Polish eh?)

[ ] You think beer is the best. (blech)
[x] You can have a bad temper.
[x] You have blue or green eyes. (hazel counts right?)
[x] You like the color green.
[x] You have been to a St. Patrick's Day party.
[ ] You have a family member from Ireland.
[ ] You have/had blonde hair. (what does blonde have to do with it? Isn't that the swedes?)
[x] You have/had freckles.
[x] Your family get togethers always include drinking and singing.
Total = 6

African American
[ ] You say nigga/nukka casually.
[ ] You have nappy hair.
[ ] You like rap.
[x] You think President George W. Bush is racist.
[ ] You like chicken. (ok, wha?.....i think the maker of this survey is racist)
[ ] You can dance.
[ ] You can sing gospel.
Total= 1

[ ] You have slanty/small eyes.
[ ] You like rice a lot.
[x] You are good at math.
[ ] You have played the piano.
[ ] You have family from Asia.
[x] You cover your mouth when you laugh sometimes.
[ ] Most people think you're Chinese.
[ ] You call hurricanes "typhoons".
[ ] You go to Baulko. (huh?)
Total = 2

[x] You like bread.
[x] You think American chocolate is good.
[x] You speak some German. (Ich spreche ein bisschen Deutsch)
[.5] You know what Schnitzel is and you love it. (know what it is, don't love it)
[x] You hate it when stupid people call you a Nazi.
[x] You went to pre-school.
[x] You're over 5'2".
Total = 7.5

[x] You like/play/played hockey.
[ ] You love beer.
[x] You say "eh".
[x] You know what "poutine" is.
[x] You speak some French.
[ ] You love "Tim Horton's". (I think the Canadian identity is the first in this survey to be intertwined with a big evil corporate franchise. Are we anti-corporates allowed to be Canadian?)
[x] At one point you lived in a farm house. (My parents still live in it)
[x] You watch "Degrassi".
Total= 6

[ ] You hate foriegners.
[ ] You hate non-Christians.
[ ] You're lazy.
[ ] You're not cultured/you fit in under NO social category.
[ ] You hate abortion.
[ ] You love the death penalty.
[ ] You don't read.
Total= 0

[ ] You sometimes say bach in a conversation
[ ] You always talk too fast for others
[x] "mun" is such a useful word (when talking about Memorial University)
[ ] You can speak welsh
[ ] You know who Owain Glyndwr was
[ ] You can understand "I'll be there in a minute now"
[ ]You've been to an Eisteddfod
[x] You've sometimes been called crazy!
[x] You KNOW the sheep jokes just AREN'T funny
[x] the celtic vibe is strong
Total= 4

Wow, apparently I'm more German than Canadian. And in order to be American you must be close-minded and almost evil. And liking chicken is crucial to being black....why did I do this survey again?

Christmas Update [Thursday
Dec 28th, 06 at 12:55pm]
[ mood | bored ]

Dec. 22nd: Worked til 10, went to the folks place

Dec. 23rd: Made amazing gingerbread cookies, did some laundry, stayed up til 2am playing Sex and the City Trivia. Of course, Ashley won.

Dec. 24th: Visited the DeBaie's (poor Brian) and fought with mom to come to Ruby's. She didn't. So I delivered my cookies to Ruby with Ashley. Margie wasn't home so Holly got Margie's cookies. Holly, Jon, Ashley and I piled into the car and went in search of a Tim Horton's that was still open. I was an unwilling participant but it was kinda fun until I needed to pee and nowhere was open :S. We finally found a Timmy's (at 2:20am), went home and I smoked my Xmas eve joint and went to sleep.

Dec. 25th: XMAS!!!! For the first time in history, Ash and I slept in.....almost. At seven....a very early seven...I awoke to mom yelling for everyone to wake up. We opened our presents and I got some decent stuff, a diamond ring, a fuzzy robe, Eternal Sunshine and Naked Lunch, etc etc etc

Dec. 26th: Lazy day. Really lazy. Played Skip-bo (Ashley got it for Xmas) 'til like 6:30pm, then had a shower and went to Timmy's with Stacy and Meag. Everyone else was MIA (*ahem*) We wxchenged presents, then I went home and played Skip-bo some more. I want a Skip-bo deck, that game is fun.

Dec. 27th: Back to Hali to go to work.

So all in all it was a G-rated, Shore Xmas like usual.

No plans for New Years Eve, if anyone's doing anything fun, lemme know.


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